No, not again! How did this happen again?? How did I end up completing a whole year without managing to write to you? I’m sorry.
It’s been over 5 years and I really don’t have any excuses but I do have a bunch of reasons;
I met a clown – letter for another day
I was taken advantage of – letter for another day
I got pregnant – letter for another day
I was suicidal – letter for another day
Usual issues with friends, family
I lost a lot
I gained a lot
I became a mother
I became a wife – letter for another day
I became a mentor and a coach
I got wiser
I gained strength
I improved my faith – letter for another day
I changed job a number of times
I grew up
I found purpose
But there’s no excuse and I’m sorry.
Every year I started with so much hope and expectation in myself, thinking I would write to you, but so many things came up, so many set backs that I would later find out were set ups for my growth.
Well it finally happened.
I finally put aside all the reasons, all the excuses, all the weight and finally managed to write to you. I hope you receive my letter well and hope it blesses you, makes you think, makes you smile and above all touches the right place in your heart that causes change.
I finally stopped struggling with myself and wanting everything to be so perfect. I remembered that He that is in me, is greater than He that is in the world. I own every space I am in, I am called to make a difference (in my marriage, my home, my children, my job, my school, my community etc). I have a right to be here. I was destined to be here. He gave me permission to be here.
I changed my thinking, changed my actions and I want to help you to change yours.
“Dear you, whatever it is you want to start, start it now. Yes there is a set time for everything, but the excuse of ‘it’s not the right time’, will always be there. Don’t let being ‘perfect’ get in the way of being ‘done’. Don’t be intimidated by the position He has destined for you. Embrace it! Failure will show up in various forms. But you must take it as opportunity!”